same shit

different smell September 13, 2003 - 702am

the layout isnt any different...but at least its slightly prettier...

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FINALLY!

Hennes & Mauritz September 13, 2003 - 1246am

i guess when you ask and ask again...and ask again...they will build...and build again...for about 2 years now...i've been emailing h&m..."hi! i LOVE your clothes but i HATE having to see them only in magazines...when will you open a location in chicago?"...call me psycho...but i did this at least once every 2 months or so...and FINALLY...about 8 months ago...i got an email from h&m notifying me that they would be opening TWO locations!...this was then confirmed by donna after she saw an ad in the paper...i sucked in my breath so deep when i found out...i freaked out my friends...=)...so today...h&m on michigan ave...FINALLY opened...three floors...of...wowness..check out the pic i took...

i didnt really 'get my shop on' since im flat fuqn broke...but i did manage to spend about 30 bucks on a belt...a top...and a sweater...they had countless accessories, hats, and purses (my MAIN weaknesses)...but i steered clear...otherwise...i woulda been in deep shit...but even tho we got there at about 430 and had to wait in a relatively brisk line to get in...i must say...it wasnt as bad as i had expected...granted...there were times where i had to just STAND THERE so loads of women with armfuls of clothes could walk by...it still wasnt that bad...very well worth it...

on another note...the mcdonalds on chicago ave/state st is the NASTIEST one ive seen by far!...there were bums lurking everywhere...even INSIDE the fuqn restaurant...this nasty fuq came up to me and gloria asking for food..."no...nope sorry...no...go away...leave us alone"...then he touched gloria!...yuck...yah that wasnt cool...bout 5 mins later...ole boy came back asking for food...and gloria...quite loudly said "WOULD YOU JUST GO AWAY AND LEAVE US ALONE!"...it was nice...i think the entire restaurant turned their heads towards us...woOo...he left us the fuq alone...

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here comes

the rain again September 01, 2003 - 100pm

rain rain go away
come again another day

rain rain go away
little tracy wants to play

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who the fuq

reads this shit? August 29, 2003 - 1051pm

just curious...or am i typing to nobody?...=P email me or let me know via aim! well...like...i wanna know...but i dont...yah...jus let me know...but if i kno you...dont comment on anything...=)...lol...um...and if ur not on my buddylist on aim...i probably wont even answer your im...lol...but you can try...its worth trying yah?...im on yahoo messenger too...tho im rarely signed on...maybe like once a month...twacee10

i am so utterly bored...i hate being broke...i usually dont mind spending a night or two at home...but when i HAVE to spend it at home because i have no money to go out...that fuqn SUCKS...

i went to tin lizzie last night to watch band called pharisee...louise knows the lead singer...his vocals are SO freakn strong...its awesome...we had a really good time...lou said she was gonna be there at 815...after dropping off glors car for her dad...i found parking right by urban outfitters!...yay!...and then she showed me the stamp shop that was down the block...can i tell you...im in LOVE with heroarts stamps!...well louise was running late so glor and i jus hung out and had a drink...then pete ended up showing up with adam...who i think ive met like 5 billion times...none of which we remember...well no...i remember meeting him last year at zentra...we were there for petes thing...but thats about it...he remembers me from when he picked up equipment with pete at my apt...of course...as he stated...he was sober then...lol...so all in all we had a really fun time...it was a different setting...a different sound...a different crowd...and a different mixture of friends...like i told pete...i like it when things are different...i embrace change...=)

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just a lil

gratitude August 23, 2003 - 119pm

now that i can finally sit in front of the computer without this green background making me sick...i wanted to express how much i love my family and friends...ive never really said that outloud...cuz im not...like that...hahaa...youve probably hear me call my family assholes and my friends dumbbitches...those are MY terms of endearment...

i have to say that every year...my birthday celebrations have been great...ever since i was a little girl...i've had birthday parties at my house...we always had tons of food that my mom slaved over...and kids running around chasing each other with noise makers...i can honestly say that i had a birthday party every year from the time i was born until i turned 14...but even after that...all my birthdays have been celebrated...and celebrated well...

this year has been one of the most memorable birthdays ever...jay got me my first tattoo ever...and a '94 integra to boot...a car ive ALWAYS wanted...plus it has WAY less miles than my car!..i got spoiled by my family...money to shop with...makeup to play with...and all the potstickers i wanted to eat!...and of course my friends...all 20 billion of them...those online and offline...=)...all the birthday wishes via email, txt messages, and friendster...lol...the wonderful dinner...all my great gifts...and the drinks...all with their infamous "ready for another shot?" questions...followed by my "5 more minutes"...lol...

my friends...im glad that thru the years...even tho some have drifted away...some have drifted back...thru my old friends...and new ones too...many have stayed the same...this was one of the best birthdays EVER...and will remain to be one of my MOST memorable...i only have all you wonderful people to thank!...

click here to view pics from my birthday...

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its all

a blur August 22, 2003 - 238pm

*** Auto-response sent to xxxxx: omg...its my brithday and eereything spinning and im tasrsashed..fuq...m iogoin to sleep noqw

i dont remember typing that!...why would i even go near my compter when im completely DRUNK!...wow...

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is it really...

tym 2 go? August 21, 2003 - 619am

imaginexxx: and there have just been so many signs that i should leave
itwaceei: HHHHHAAHHAAAA
itwaceei: like wat?
imaginexxx: like it's 6yrs...as a cashier!!! tym to go man
imaginexxx: so, imma b a 26 year old cashier...oh, how sexy is that
imaginexxx: tym to go

that totally made me laff out loud...and no...im not laffing AT him...im laffing at how he said it...lol...=P

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religion

this is a new one August 21, 2003 - 1215am

now that i've turned 26...i will be religiously using two products...

because i'm paranoid like that...and because i want to look like im 17 forever...even tho i hate getting carded..

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blahblahblahblah August 20, 2003 - 739pm

omg...im gonna be 26 in a matter of hours...

i really need to start keeping private entries...i find that i dont express myself fully on here...i hold back...A LOT...only cuz i know people who i interact with on a daily basis is on here...reading me...i mean...it wouldnt be so bad if they dont make comments like..."oh i was just on your site..."..."i read what you wrote about..."...shit like that...

blahblahblah...maybe its cuz im totally hormonal right now...i hate bleeding...lol...but people in general piss me off...im so fuqn cranky...so fuqn emotional...i HATE THIS...plus...i dunno...this turning 26 thing...im not liking it...i just feel so old and so stuck at the same time...my financial situation is all screwy...at least im slowly paying off my debt...SLOWLY...i guess if i woke up earlier n got my butt to work at 9am...id be ok...=P

on a brighter note...my brother got me makeup from sephora!!! woOo...he made good use of my wishlist...he so smart...thats why were related...=)

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palm

reader August 13, 2003 - 1230am

i just read my palm on yahoo astrology try it...its fun!

You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others.

You may have trouble concentrating or focusing your attention, especially under stress.

At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement.

The general flexibility of your character is a useful attribute. At certain times in your life, you may have romantic conflicts and difficulty maintaining friendships. You will overcome these problems after a little introspection.

There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression.

Your personality is dynamic and attractive to most people. The more branches you find in your heart line, the more friends and lovers you will have. However, you may be tempted to treat the opposite sex unkindly.

You are naturally charming and inclined to be flirtatious.

At certain times in your life, you may have romantic conflicts and difficulty maintaining friendships. These problems are not likely to last long.

There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes. No matter what circumstances come your way, you have a generally positive attitude which may help you overcome life's obstacles.

Your optimistic outlook helps increase your problem-solving capabilities.

You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good health most of the time.

You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems, or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy.

No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an under lying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.

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im fairy

happy August 10, 2003 - 350pm

so...happy birthday to me...well...not quite yet...but jay (who thinks tattoos are completely useless but knows that ive wanted one FOREVER) got me my bday present already...and i LOVE IT....dont tell my mom ok?...click for a larger view

i got it on friday...conrads bday...we had a little bbq at the apt for his bday and then jay, gloria, peter, kathleen, and janette went with me to chicago tattoo on belmont...it was AWESOME and it didnt hurt at all...if anything it was annoying...it only took an hour...the tattoo artist mike...who i HIGHLY recommend...said i sat REALLY well and that it helped the inking process go smoother and faster...its on the right side of my lower back...its still red and swollen...and a little sore...but i think im already addicted...i mean...when i was getting inked i was already thinking about my NEXT one!...=)

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happy

saturday August 2, 2003 - 274pm and 806pm

its really nice out!!!...i shoulda groomed ma legs so i could be donning some hot pants...kidding...on all accounts...so chrismix was over...taught us how to get ppvs...woOo...old school is on...ive seen like 10 mins...and i cant stop laffn...made some beef stew with ramen noodles...i guess thats the type o shit you eat when you havent done groceries in a while...we have all this hamburger helper stuff...but we dont got ground beef/turkey...lol...we got no meats...cept for some turkey burger patties...

listening to in search of nerd....preview it on their site n-e-r-d.com its pretty hot actually...itll be in my cd player a while...nothing like blasting music with your windows rolled down...yah...look at me and my loud music with my 18" gold rims...lol...thats always fun...plus i look daym small behind the wheel...lol...ill scan a pic...youll see...

waiting for jeanette to scoop me up...woOo...gonna go wit her to get her tattoo in a bit...i think were gonna be early tho...the guy doesnt get there till 4...but at least we can checK out the shops on clark/belmont...i dont think ive really walked that area since last year...when we took phil/robby from 360vm along with lawrence from 935draggers and aiko tanaka ...that was FUN!..click for a larger view

k...gonna go finish up old school now...btw...friendster isnt as fun anymore...but i still check it everyday...and click on everyones friends...its so weird who you find...

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August 2, 2003 - 806pm

so jeanette just dropped me off a little while ago...gosh...this is my first weekend all summer where i didn't have anything already planned...or potentially planned...i dont know wtf to do with myself!...its really quite weird...ive been so busy that my summer is flying right past me...jeanettes tat is really nice...it turned out better than i expected from the outline the artist showed us...it was kinda gross when the vaseline started to melt and her blood started dripping...im such a good friend...i jus toweled it up and kept on eating my tacos...lol...

so when i was digging for that pic of me driving...i came across pics from when i stalked...i mean...when i went to see joey mcintyre in cleveland...=)...and then that reminded me that i didnt document my monday!!!...i went and saw danny wood in concert at clout!...yah im so fuqn lame...but so is gloria since she went with me...the show actually turned out pretty good...i had fun and his singing is much better now...the show was pretty good...until a bunch of hoochies and fat girls got up on stage to dance...that kinda killed it for me...but other than that...it REALLY was much better than i expected...plus hes not as ugly as i remembered him...oh...and besides the fact that joe and him were former new kids...i got autographs from both of them on my arm...im gay huh?...i shoulda gave him sumtn solid to sign...like a cocktail napkin...lol...but i wanted my arm signed...

k...gonna go watch me some quality tv...psh...

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rabbits rabbits

watever... August 1, 2003 - 530pm

its the first of august...ALREADY?...where the fuq has my summer gone? its fuqn raining right now...i know i bitch and moan...its too cold...and then when it gets hot...i bitch and moan...its too hot...watever...i just want it to be a constant sunny 79 with a slight breeze...is it THAT much to ask? daym...my tan from florida has faded...well...in the forbidden areas...*wink wink*...you can see my tan lines really well...yah...it looks like i have a nude bikini bottom on when im nekkid...lol...i think its funny...jay thinks its cute...lol...and i dont care what YOU think...

so...my birthday is fast approaching...ill be 26...holy...shit...so in honor of marking my first 25 years on this here earth...im gonna get a tattoo...ive wanted a tat for TOO long...im so flakey tho...i get bored easily...and im picky...but i think...with the help of my friends...i've finally decided...imma get me this...

ill be removing those nasty fins from her legs...and making her feet smaller...other than that...its goin on the right side of my lower back...this should be happening this coming week...i promised gloria id wait for her to get back from sf so she could go with me...i'll be goin with jeanette this saturday to get hers done...yay...shes scared if she waits any longer...shell change her mind...

and SINCE my birthday will be upon us on the TWENTYFIRST..you can view my wishlist(s):
http://www.holgamods.com
a lomo supersampler
handmadepaper.us
sephora.com
amazon.com
delias.com
urbn.com

happy shopping...=P

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im recovered

i think July 25, 2003 - 1243pm

um...different recovering...this time im speaking of alcohol and hangovers...*hurl*...type more later...not in da mood...but lookie da doggies!!!...dats bobo on top...my shih tzu...and thats chelsea on da bottom...vics doggie...shes so CUTE!

click the pic for the full size

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trying to

recover July 17, 2003 - 455pm

was i REALLY in detroit just last week? wow...it was so much fun...shooters in niagara...THAT was a nice memory...

if you want to see the rest of the pics from my trip...just go to ebay and bid on them...lol...there are over 96 varieties to choose from...i'll even throw in 2 .avi files...lol...

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just

breath July 15, 2003 - 1223am

*smile*...chik-fil-a, goldilocks, macadmia nuts, homemade yummy meals...oh my

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daym2

im still packing July 10, 2003 - 1223am

i know i overpacked...but i DONT CARE...still have so much shit to do...shouldnt be on here...oki...see ya when i get back from detroit...ill take LOTS N LOTS N LOTS of pics!...i know you aostalkers are looking forward to seeing them...its not happening...=P ur just not worthy

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daym

its late July 9, 2003 - 355am

i didnt realize it was so late...then again...i shoulda known better...went to bar louie's...that summer breeze martini is so good...i had two!...and then we went to home depot to check out some astroturf...yah...dont ask...=)...

k...i really need to get to bed...long day ahead of me...i still have a shit load of stuff to pick up for my trip...im leaving in a freakn day!...

nite

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must add more...

hi friendster! June 20, 2003 - 114am

join me as i explore my latest addiction

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count down

to 8mile July 3, 2003 - 147am

omg...1 more week...holy SHIT...i cant believe its crept up on us so fast...first it seemed like it was forever...and then it was SOOOO close but so far away...and then it seemed like the 10th would NEVER come...and now...i have 7 days!...EEEEEEEEEEEEK...were all SO excited...its gonna be so much fun...i have to go get new rechargeables for my digital...my shit is DYING after like 5 shots...and since im such a picturetaking freak...i need another like...8 pack...

so this past weekend was fun!...i went ice skating for glorias birthday and even tho i only went around ONCE...i didnt fall...granted...donna and louise were extensions of my arms!...but i would actually like to go back...i wanna try it again...its like me and swimming pools...when i went to cancun in 98...i wouldnt get in the water...i had to buy a fuqn dragonball donut from some ghetto store downtown...even then...i was scared shitless everytime i floated away from the girls...but this time in clearwater...i actually tried swimming...with a floaty noodle of course...but i tried...thats all that matters...so ice skating...ill have to give that another shot...

had some puerto rican food tonight...that shit is so yummy...

looking forward to this holiday weekend...get some rest...do some drinking...eat lots o food...

detroits gonna be skuurred...they have NO clue what kinda psycho bitches will be hitting town...=) "NYAAAAAY"

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must add more...

hi friendster! June 20, 2003 - 114am

join me as i explore my latest addiction

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i'm gonna live forever

F A M E June 18, 2003 - 915pm

Jamisen Tiangco	Harlemm Lee	Raymond Lee

"Thanks for calling fame but you've reached your call in limit for this telephone number...please try again next week"

am i a loser or what? hahaha...hey...THREE asians in da game...gotta root for them right?...lol

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wocka wocka

ur a wacko June 16, 2003 - 11pm

gosh...ive been TOO lazy!

so i wouldnt even remember what happend in may...jay went to vegas for his bday and had ton of fun...also bled his fuqd up nose all ova the plane for over an hour...they even had to speed the plane up for him!...how JAQD up!...

um...we had tapas with donna on friday...err...june 6...lol...10 days ago...not TOO far back...she loved LOVED her bday gifts...im just too crafty for myself...i made almost everything i gave her...=)...the tapas was ok...cafe iberico is much much better...yum...but the sangria and the desserts were yummy...

that same weekend i drove to kentucky with my mom and my gramma...my grams told some crazy stories on the drive there...i LOVE those stories...my cousin melissa had a hawaiian themed graduation party...made it there in 4.5 hours...took one wrong turn...them kentucky hills are crazy...but i had such a great time! lisa,ruby,my mom and my gramma played mah jong all night long...and i stayed up to make sure they didnt talk shit bout me...kidding...that isnt why i stayed up...but i knew if i left...they woulda...i bet taht 30 mins i spent on the treadmill was a cash cow for them!...i bought 4 pairs of shoes and a pair of capris but lisa took care of it for me...so that made the purchase THAT much better...and then at the gap/oldnavy/bananarepublic clearance center i bought 4 pairs of jeans and some tops...plus a shitload for jay...since you kno...i left him out last time...=)...i got lost on the way back to chicago...they closed off the expressway and it didnt even have any detour signs! good thing a nice cop told us how to get back...

the day after i got back from kentucky...i had rezas with some old grade school buddies...it was nice...we had a great time together and ended up taking some really goofy pics...were tryin to plan our next get together...one of them plans on moving to san francisco by the end of august so were tryin to hook up before then...its crazy how packed everyone's summer already is!

i went out friday for thai food with xtina/gigi/jeanette...we had lots o funs talkn bout winkies n curlies etc...lol...terrible how raunchy a group of girls can get...=P...we all met up at the coffee shop and xtina drove to the restaurant...then we went back to the apt where the 'guys' were having a bbq...jay decided it was byom...bring yo own meat...and it worked out great...i need to do some heavy duty mopping tho...our floor is disgusto!...when christina dropped me off at my car i found 3 tickets...fuqn asshole cop cashed out with me...no parking/tinted windows/improper front plate display...bitchass...but thats ok...i had ton o fun...=)...

and here i am today...i cleaned my desk like a maniac at work...gawd...the office is getting to be REALLY disgusting...i cant take working in that environment much longer...so im gonna have to do sumtn bout it...imma be a moody maid tomorrow...clean clean clean...

k...im sick of looking at all this green...you should be too...im thirsty...n i feel fat...oh no wait...my mom TOLD me i was fat yesterday...so i told her..."fine...im never coming home again"...=) so freakn mature of me...but seriuosly...ill show up when im nice n thin...whenever that will be...jay n i are gonna hit the gym tomorrow...thinkin bout joining xsport over on lincoln/ashland...$500 for 15 months...everyone says thats a good price...yah? well...i dont really have $500 to spend on dat...but im growing bored of my gazelle...plus theres nothing worth working out to on tv...oh bleh...need some water...that pizza mustah had ton o msg...

and im addicted to friendster...=)...wont you be my friend today?

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im human

and a bobble-head May 14, 2003 - 2pm

that would make me...a human bobble-head...ask jay...he witnessed it...and then i beat the shit out of him...

btw...watched jackass the movie...AGAIN...that shits just wrong...but too funny...=)

watching matrix reloaded tonight...SWEET!!!...thanks rich!

i feel yucky...i swear i took a NONdrowsy allergy pill...but for some reason...im feeling drugged up as fuq...

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little birdy

woke up early May 13, 2003 - 1pm

um...ive been awake since 730....cooked breakfast...scrambled eggs runny...corned beef hash...and toast...and got into work before 9!...im not kidding...check out the screencap here...yup yup...now im hungry...

just saw a commercial for mountain dew livewire...wanna try...that sprite remix is aiight...i wouldnt crave it or anything...

so...yoga ended yesterday...and im DAYM sore today...debating if i should continue taking classes at her downtown studio...thats such a time and parking issue tho...i dunno...im gonna try to pick a set and do it for 40 days...itll be my campaign to wellness...we'll see...jay and i r still looking to join a gym tho...i love my gazelle...but i really miss the weight training...

my car has been in the shop from the time i was in florida...this is SUCH A PAIN IN THE FUQN ASS...quite frustrating...but theyre doing the shit for free...so whatever..but daym...i feel so...yah...i NEEDS ma car!...

i was listening to dem battling rappahs...ja eminem 50 busta...um...i mean...for ja to be talk bout eminems daughter?!?!...thats sum fuqd up shit...its mighty mighty interesting...i swear those words are too violent for ma ears...
ja rule - loose change
eminem, 50 cent, busta rhymes - hale mary 2003 (ja rule diss)

btw...EVERYONE i fuqn know is getting married and/or graduating...shiet...i gotta get my ass to school...

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burnt

n itchy May 3, 2003 - 109pm

im BACK from clearwater beach florida...it was SO gorgeous there...we didn't want to come back...we especially didnt want to come back sunday while it was storming in chicago!...more about the trip later...but here are some pics...to see ALL the pics click here

jealous? yah i wish i had flamingos on my bathroom wall too!

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naughty

naughty girl April 25, 2003 - 209pm

o wow...ive been full of neglect!...last post march 20! holy shit...so...i've been REALLY busy...and having TON O FUN...all those makeup shows were awesome...umm...well kinda...the first one was great...louise won something...and then the next show kidna sucked cuz the goodie bags were TERRIBLE...but i won this perfume thing...only...it smells like old lady...so im funna sell it on ebay...its worth like over $200...and then we went to this memories expo...which was SWEET...bought sum stuff but didnt do THAT much damage...we all been gettin crafty lately!...i've been making more cards...its fun...anyway...we also went to a bridal expo with donna...which wasnt too bad...even tho we had to go in there and pretend to be bride2bes...but my five dollah cubic zirc from icing worked just fine...=)...i even won a bouquet of tulips...PLUS...i found a dollar on the floor...that was SWEET...and then at the NEXT makeup show at marshall fields...donna won a prize! a makeover with a celebrity makeup artist...PLUS she got to keep all the stuff they used on her...

k...what else...

im REALLY looking forward to the florida trip...were leaving next thurs! may 1...yay...im super excited...im jus happy i ragged already...woOohoo...dont need to be worryin bout that in clearwater beach!

my brother had that eye surgery done and the stitches have been removed too...i think hes doing fine now...but his vision is still pretty bad...so maybe lasik?...otherwise hell have to do glasses...

*sneeze* allergies r kicking ma booty...

bored with this layout...will be changing it in the next month or so...or not...dunno...we shall see...

still having REALLY weird dreams...my gram has weird dreams all the time...but she gets freaked out by them...i told her bout my funky dreams and how crazy weve been with the makeup shows/bridal show...that made her smile...

watched the ring...kinda...i still need to watch the entire movie...i only saw the ending...but i saw the 'part'...um...freakaY...

err...jus rambling on at work...so...i think i shall stop here...im HUNGRY...

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dont got

that bling March 20, 2003 - 124pm

umm...i dropped mad money on shoes yesterday...but THATS OK...we came away with 4 pairs o shoes...buy one get one free...cant get any better than that yah?...dood...i got a pair of shoX...final-fuqn-ly...theyre COMFY...now i know what ill be wearing next weekend...its gonna be CRAZAY i tell ya...saturday 730am...makeup show at woodfield...and then after the shows over...crafting/scrapbooking show until 5pm...and then sunday...bridal show with donna...omg...such fun activities...

so i was checking someones away msg on aim...yah i have a tendancy to do that...so what if im a nosy ass...its hilarious what people wright...cept when its that standard "i am away from the computer right now"...you boring FUQS...anyway...i came across a poem...and i was like...wowed by it...its a bit touching...and scary...to see that i dont know this side of this person...but holy shiet...its sweet...=)

i miss my family...i think for the first time since ive moved out...im homesick...there are just so many changes goin on at home...with my family...with the house...with my parents' business...i havent been a big part of it...cuz im not there...but what can i do when they dont fill me in on whats goin on...im home at least once or twice a week...i call to check in...its just weird...its like they dont wanna 'bother' me...but it upsets me that theyre being so cordial...

i been watchin this documentary on pbs...I LOVE PBS...dont talk shit...

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lol...

sniff it March 20, 2003 - 124pm

umm...

j i n x t a h (1:15 PM): my thumb was all buffalo smelling the next day ..

thats some sick shit mikee!...

so yah...mikee go buhbye...hes in dallas now...it was awesome meeting him...even tho all we did was go EAT...but that last night of buffalo wings was daym good huh?...jay so smart...he decided to take mikee along the scenic route...by the museum campus n stuff...i love chicago...its so fuqn gorgeous...and omg...soldier field looks so DIFFERENT!...i cant believe that shiet...cant wait to hit a bears game tho...and YES mikee got what he came for...a pic with the jordan statue!...sweet...oh...and mikee walked away with great knowledge...he now knows that the john hancock is NOT the sears tower...*stifle laffter*

ive been emailing back and forth with anne/liz/candice/maan...were planning on meeting up in detroit sometime july...we're all gonna crash at candice's house...this way we can save money on room/board...how AWESOME will that be?!...omg...im so excited...ive met candice twice...but the dynamics of having ALL of US there will be so great...eeEeeeeK...giddy just thinking about it...=D

im really hungry...want me some al's beef...but i dont feel like driving there...even tho it isnt that far...and they do actually have a parking lot...but in all honesty...i dont got no money...=)...so maybe ill go to mcdonalds and speedpass that shiet...lol...sad huh?...to charge $2 is just plain pathetic...oh well...pathetic i am...

btw...casino that night...i lost me $100...and so did jay...lol...needless to say i had ramen for dinner...lol...

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oh...

happy day... March 16, 2003 - 621pm

k...it was absolutely BEAYOOOOOTEEEFULLLL OUT today!...went to old orchard...walked around...met up with conrad.john.mike and then julius and his girlfriend...i only had 3 bucks on me...jay had to buy me a pair of joggers...i saw these pink new balances...but jay thinks theyre gay...oh well...i still have a pair of nikes that look brand new...i think theyre like 2 years old...conrad bought another pair of shoes...that boy!...but i like em...wonder if they got them in ma size...

gonna head to sushi doraku in a bit...woO sushi...yum...tho i feel like i need to use the potty...i had two pretzels from auntie anne's or watevers...oh and a white chocolate mocha...mmm starbucks...bhahaa...chrismix called earlier...hes on a roll with his casino winnings...maybe his luck will rub off on us...possible casino night...only $170 in checking...daym...gotta dip into my $120 savings account...HAHAHHAA>..such sadness...

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oh...hey

fuQ you k? March 16, 2003 - 236am

can i just tell you...how fuqn MOODY i am?...oh and btw...a tad tipsy at it...its nice to drive home semi-drunk...those headlights are like...i dunno...im extra sensitive to them...theyre like elevated...i dont really think im drunk...seeing that when im drunk...it involves ton o puking...and i have no urge to puke...just to scream out loud at the world..maybe do some cleaning...and about 5 miles on my gazelle...yah...work that madness off yO...omg...DL:JF:LKJDDJLSDJF...that is all i can say about this shit...i have nothing further your honor...k...thats a big fat mother fuqn bitchass LIE...

so...mikees here...and its cool...we picked him up from the airport and headed out to dinner last night...but thats the extent of it so far...hes been chilling with his coworkers...dissed out on tonight tho...so watevers...i mean hey..i dont fuqn care if you dont take advantage of the fuqn time i put aside for you...ill jus find sumtn else to do...had smoking woodys for dinner with gigi/jairuis/john...yum...them sweet potatoe fries are goOod...so...transit...was crazy packed...and according to donna...they were pulling some shady shit...which i dont doubt...just for the fact that theyre a nightclub...and unfortunately...the industry is just SO like that...people on jays guestlist had to pay 10 bucks to get in (some got in others had to pay 10...not bad considering door is $20)...fuqd up shiet...but hey...if they can make money...why not...so sorry donna...next time i guess?...saw vicky n ricky there...they were celebrating rickys sisters bday i think?...shrug...didnt kick dem nuts...i was a nice girl yO...saw edna and her bridal party there...and omg i fuqn said hi...believe that shiet now...such fun...fuq marriage...but i gots me a cubic zirconia so i can go to a wedding show with donna...that way dem fuqrs wont ignore my ass...gloria and kath actually made it out...i mean...wow...i dont remember the last time we been out together...nye with kath...and transit with glor...but before that...what?...funky buddha last july?...im glad they went...but fuq...they only went cuz donna wanted to go out REALLY FUQN BADLY...and she didnt even get to head in the club...watevers...fuqn fire marshalls...i swear...if fuqn ghettO e2 didnt pull taht shiet...woulda been all good...i shoulda fuqn stayed...coulda danced with don n sheryl n them...or even jason n his marine buddies...but no...im at the apt doing nothing but bitchn my fuqn ass off...NEEED ME A DOUBLE SHOT OF MAKERS!!!...oh no...alcoholic sneaking out...wait...no such thing...i aint no alkie...i cant be...ma tolerance is too fuqn low...but dood...i needs to find me some clubbing/drinking buddies...i cant be stayin home in pjs every fuqn weekend when my man works...hey...maybe its the alcohol talkn...but watever...thats how im feeln right now...so sorry to offend...but fuq you...=)...not my problem...

so...i think...to ease my jumpy nerves...im gonna work out nekkid...naw...maybe not nekkid...i need some support or another...shiet...couple glasses of wine sound good too...but i might have to pick up jay...so i dunno bout that...figuring its st. pats weekend...fuqn irishmotherfuqrs all drunk n shiet...and i saw 3 state troopers on the expressway...not good for me...tho...i was quite lucky...speeding from transit to drop off the girls...and doing 80 on the way back to apt...im alive...and i aint been arrested...so hey...sniff my alcoholic ass k?...yah...you kno you likes!...

gazelle...get ready baby...im gonna do me 2 miles at LEAST...

must...sober...up...face...is...SWOLLEN...im...so...red...hot...red hot baby...and red...and hot...gyeaH...

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full

of it March 13, 2003 - 125pm

i had dinner at like...930...and omg...why am i still so full?...i still have the need to pass out...daym banana creme pie...why on earth would i suggest we each get one?...at least i had half a pie leftover for jay to try...btw its a tiny pie...its not a hyooge pie...i aint no piggy...=D...i should just go to bed...jays working on a mix tho...and i dont want him to stop...so i cant hop in bed without making him feel bad...but then he could be looking all hot in these styling headphones i got him...

i remember when i was in catholic grammar school and i had give up stuff for lent...it was always pop...now that i dont HAVE to give up anything...i want to...haha...oh well...i wonder what jay has given up...*shrug*

mikees in town this weekend! yay...that should be pretty cool...its just odd to know someone for so long and to never have met them...of course he isnt the only one...i still have yet to meet anne...lizz...and a bunch o others who i dont really talk to much...i think ive known all of them for...i dunno...7 or 8 years...daym aol...it drained me of sleep and time...lol...anyway...its supposed to be 62 on saturday...i SOo hope so!...

i started taking yoga back in feb...the 24th...so far ive had 3 sessions...its on every monday...now...initially it was weird...cuz my instructor was wearin all white and she had a white turban on her head...and it just wasnt the type of yoga i was familiar with...the yoga im learning is called kundalini yoga...it involves alot of breathing techniques, chants, mantras, and meditation. it was just kinda...well...weird...but after going through with the first class...i actually enjoyed it...and now after the 3rd session...ive noticed that my breathing patterns have gotten better...i really should be practicing everyday...but my memory SUCKS...so im gonna order a dvd after my next pay...cuz as of now...im broke...=D...

im no longer a slaughtered animal...im now a slighty drippy medium rare piece of meat...k...tired...sleepee...but house hunters is on...so i must go watch it...LOVE IT...i go buhbye now...

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fantasy

is freaKay February 15, 2003 - 630pm

k...so i dont forget my fuqd up dream...here it is...and wow...btw...i woke up at 1pm today...but i still remember my dream!...its only cuz i made an effort to keep it fresh in my brain...so for the past...oh...5.5 hours ive been thinking about amusement park mansions...weddings that look like a mardi gras parade...and a tiny little man/robot thingy that tried to hump kathleens thigh!...and yes...thats all you need to know...use ur imagination if you must...but that was one of the more amusing dreams ive had in a long time...

maybe ill share jus a bit...

i was in this hyooge mansion..i dont know who owned it or why i was there...but when i went upstairs to my bedroom...it was a fuqn amusement park...with all these booths and rides...i went up to some friends...i have no clue who these people were...never seen them in my lifetime...but they told me..."dont go near the shower"...well next thing i knew i got GRABBED into the shower...and i ran out of the shower dripping wet...*shrug*...its a dream...i dont know...so i get pissed cuz that shower thing freaked me out...i decided to leave...and im actually in a ballroom and theres this hyooge party thing goin on...with 'important' people n all...at least they looked important...renee zellweger or however you spell her name...she was there and wearing this chinese dress...very weird...but i swear she jumped right out of the film for chicago...and then i ended up sitting at a table with kathleen/gloria and a bunch of other people...i dont even know whos wedding it was...but the wedding party was coming out...the only thing was...there was this big black lady floating across the room...and her dress was made out of a hyooge wedding cake...and her entourage looked jus as fuqd up as her...they all had HYoOoge dresses or masks...it was jus...yah...i was a the wrong wedding...it turned out a different wedding decided to parade through our room and into the hall for a big bang...

next thing i knew...there were about 5 tiny man/robot thingys rolling about the floor...this is where the humping of kathleens leg happens...but...before that tiny little man/robot thingy started humping kathleens leg...it was rolling around in the room shooting out pointy foam things...like it was a nerf gun or sumtn...and just to be more descript...it looked like those two aliens on the simpsons...jus a big green head with a glass covering over it...but it didnt have legs...it rolled around with the platform...and the head was a mans head...not an alien...anyway...it started humping kathleens thigh so i grabbed it and threw it across the room...then sum dood...who looked all scary and dr. frankenstein bout him came over and said i broke the little man/robot thingys spinal cord...and umm...i denueralized it!...correct me if im wrong...but isnt denueralizing what they do in MIB?...i think he meant paralyzed...or even better...killed it...and in my dream i told him that the little man/robot thingy said "my cord...its detached...oh my"...lol...and then i woke up...=)

so how was everyones valentine's day?...mine was great...i had lunch at wishbone with jay and then had dinner to celebrate kathleens birthday at a cuban restaurant...they had a singer at the restaurant...i got him to sing happy birthday to kathleen at our table...her reaction was priceless...im still laughing...lol...

just so i dont spend anymore money online...buyin useless stuff...i wont...use...im gonna lay on the couch n watch tv...

speaking of which...im so upset that yes got booted of bots (battle of the sexes)...=(...*drool*

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update

so ya kno January 30, 2003 - 346pm

IM ALIVE!!!...been lazy...and not wanting to be in front of computer all day...well also i went to kentucky last weekend and when i got back i had the flu...so i pretty much was plastered across the couch with remote glued to hand...but im jus here to remind myself that im on the rag...in case i forget next month when i last had my rag...lol...cuz yah...dont worry...you need not know of details...just read on...heres my chat log with pete...tho...it was just me chatting...with myself...cuz he went to lunch...but i didnt shuttup...i jus kept talkn...and then after i was done...i realized what a psycho i sounded like...so it was funny...and now...you can laff too...

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it was great...i loved that plank...so cute!...oh the other night jay showed me some video of a japanese group...dood it was so bizarre...these grown men running around with nude undies and a leaf in front of their PEENISES!...i gotta find the link...it was just too funny...

can i tell you how addicted i am to what is real world/road rules and all that revolves?!?!...im fuqn obsessed n shit...but at least i know im not the only one...so yay...reading melissa's journal cracks me up...i hate that bitch...she annoys the constipated shit in me...but still...she makes me laff so hard...

k...that is all...im at work...and yah...hi!...

later at 926pm

i'm in the middle of a cleaning frenzy...chinese new year is on saturday...so...its in a way spring cleaning but for different reasons...and a lot earlier...when i was little i asked my mom why i had to clean my room and why she was always furiously mopping/sweeping or dusting/vacuuming around chinese new year...she said it was to clear away all the bad stuff from the old year so theres room for good stuff in the new year...umm...might not make sense to anyone else...and might not be true for that matter...but oh well...this tradition has occurred every year of my life...so it might as well continue in my own apartment...anyway...i jus did sum dishes and im about the mop the floor...but i jus wanted to take note really quick...my dish drainer has two compartments for drying utensils n stuff...so...i prefer the spatulas/spoons/tongs/chef's knife/etc in the left compartment and all the utensils (spoons/forks/knives) in the right compartment...theres nothing wrong with that right?...i mean..i make it a point to arrange it so that its forks/spoons/knifes/chopsticks...does that make me anal?...when jay does the dishes...he likes to put things...where there's room to put things...in other words...the utensils sometimes end up in the left compartment...and the rice scooper ends up in the compartment on the right...umm...and yah...i end up rearranging and putting them in their "approriate" compartments (when hes not around cuz i dont want him to think that i think he doesnt know how to put away dishes...lol)...so do i have issues?...cuz its not just with that...the stacking order of the bowls/plates/pots/pans along with which cabinet to house them...yah...i have issues with that too...they NEED to be a certain way...lol...does that make me anal or slightly ocd?...just wondering thats all...

so...i really don't want to mop....but i will...cuz...i like it when it smells so fresh and so clean clean up in here...up in here...and o wow...my room is a fuqn mess...that means i have to put piles into orderly piles so as to appear organized but cramped for space versus appearing to be the sloppy lazy ass that i really am...

did you check out the plank?...isnt it cute?...

found the 'green leaves' video...YATTA! http://www.digitalsmackdown.com/film/yatta.html

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happy happy

joy joy January 6, 2003 - 100am

=) its been...a while since ive typed...been a little busy bee...holidays n stuff...more on that later...my tummy hurts...i have to go poop now...cuz yes...you needed to know that...and you also need to know...i farted...and i left jay with that awful stench...i feel almost guilty...k...no...i really dont...

nye at dragon fly was a dudd...it was so...*empty*...but i still had lots of fun...and guess what?...i was fuqn SOBER!!!...surprise?...yah me too...its a good thing i didnt gulp that bookers down...or it woulda been baaaad...but...i did a shot of bookers on monday at 4pm...thats wat i deserve...lol...i got vic a flask and collapsible shot glass for xmas...i filled the flask with the leftover bookers from my bbq...and of course...at 4pm...after he strolled in...we did a shot of bookers...and yes...it was gross..and yes...my face was red hot...but no...i didnt get drunk...and yes...i drove home with a headache at 6pm...it was fun...anyway...here are some nye pics...=D...

later at 151am

ok...GROSS...i jus popped a hyooge zit on the back of jays head...and right before i started i said..."daym...this shit better not shoot out into my eye"...well i got the nasty stuff out...oozed out like how playdoh oozes out of that little shaper thing like spagetti...so i thought i was done with the nasty white pus...i was jus trying to bleed it out...when omg...in slow motion...i see a stream of white pus SHOOT out the fuqn zit...and head for my fuqn eye...i moved my head and it all ended up on my fuqn hair...i was so disgusted and amused at the same time...and then...jay tried to wipe it from my hair...only...the fuqr was pressing the tissue into my hair...and ONTO my face...*wetness*...omg i freaked out and ran to the bathroom like a little bitch...lol...it was GROSS...but yah...so...did i make you laff out loud?...lol...

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i need

to sleep December 18, 2002 - 247am

so that very very evil part of me is back..yah...the infuqnsomnifuqnac...OMG this SUCKS...how tempting it is to douse myself with nyquil just so i can FALL asleep...and remain ASLEEP until 3pm...how tempting?...very FUQably tempting...but i cant...know why?..i have a FUQN job...and if i dont go in...guess whos gonna end up doing my work?...NOBODY...so that means shit is gonna pile up...and whos gonna have to play catch up and fix the FUQUPS?...ME!!!...

yah im so loving this sleep deprivation...that was a fuqn LIE btw...fuqheads...ugH...*moody*...

there isnt even anything remotely interesting online.on tv.in my head...NOTHING worth staying up for...should just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling...

i just did my xmas cards...that was relatively pointless since i talk to or see half these people on a normal basis...so its not like i can write crap in there like "hope you're doing well...write back soon"...i just put their name and sign my name...but for a few special chosen ones...i handmade their cards...lucky fuqn bastards...lol...but even those i dont see or talk to normally...its really just a chance for me to say "hi im still alive...i cared enough to send a card...you fuqn should too"...

hungry...but...shouldnt eat...actually...cant eat...nothing to eat...nothing that i can easily eat...cept them vienna sausages...but that new microwave might blow our fuse...and i kno jay wont go in the basement...so...no food for me...

and yah...joey mcintyre is still hot...BUT...i saw a gap model...all topless n shit...at the gap...well...in a picture...all blown up n shit in the window...hes pretty hot too..

k...i think im done...im tired...and this fuqn window insulation kit we used in my room...fuqn fell...wanna kno why?...cuz jay said..."grab the tape" and i said..."the duct tape?"...and he said "is that all we have?"...and i said..."uh yah"...and yah..well...that shit fell..and i feel a fuqn breeze...and im fuqn cold...i cant find my fuqn fleece...yah i have others...but at this moment i only want to wear that one...so...im cold....in my brown checkered pj bottoms...which i cant remember where/when i got these...and in my black ginfuqnseng nightlife t shirt...hehe...nice huh?...

oh and...its petes birthday...woO...old ass...=D...

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la la la la la la la

la la la la la December 10, 2002 - 1247am

its a holiday song...but you probably wouldnt know by those words huh?...oh well...im singing it...even if its only in my head...jays asleep on the couch...hes snoring LOUDLY...lol...i gotta workout in a bit...was supposed to like 15 mins ago...

so...countdown to the holidays...im done shopping for two whole people...woOo woOo...i still need to buy stuff to make stuff tho...and i have to buy stuff to make my holiday cards...i be crafty...yah...well see...laziness might just set in...and those cards i bought last year...will have to do...lol...

joey mcintyre is so hot...

so...ive yet to do my holiday deed...but...why do we have to wait for the holidays to do our good deed?...seriously...shouldnt it be done whenever you can do a good deed?...i dont think ill be doing any holiday deeds...unless it makes a significant difference in someones life...i probably shouldnt think like that...hmmm...gonna go to greater chicago food depository website...see if i can volunteer...the chicago bears volunteer there...lol...

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blue

is blue December 9, 2002 - 536pm

Why must my winter blues ALWAYS hit me when im SICK...AND on the mother bitchass RAG!!!...ugh...i hate this feeling...i hate being over sensitive to everyone and everything...i mean...i know on a normal basis...i already get annoyed/agitated when someone breathes weird...but now...o man...just stay the fuq away from me...and you'll survive without an emotional/physical scar...seriously...its only been the first week of december and I've already had to bite my tongue on MANY occasions...and i HAVE to say that EVERY SINGLE PERSON ive come across has gotten on my last nerves...funny how jay has actually escaped that list tho...and i live with the boy...he hasn't stepped over the line...yet...but for some reason...i dont think he will...as for everyone else...its really nothing personal...im just living in rage right now...and no matter wat...if you use a word i dont like...then you'll probably end up on my shit list...

wanted to stalk joey mcintyre...but others werent in the mood...oh well...ill just have to wait for next time...almost lost all my image/movie files!...that daym ghetto memory card vic got me last year completely zonked out on me...its a good thing jays computer did a data repair on it...i was able to recover my files...but just think...if i was remotely computer dumb...how upset i would be...i woulda lost the movie clip where joe says..."will you still suck my *silence*?...just kidding"...lol...

my back is killing me...i think its time to crawl back into bed...

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hi

how are you? November 14, 2002 - 136am

been busy...so sorry...

im also getting a nasty draft from the window in my room...so its too fuqn cold to sit here with cold ass wind hitting my forearm...=)

ill type more after i get them plastic hair dry adhesive sheets

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*evil grin*

addictive November 5, 2002 - 1206am

ive been so neglecting my entries...oh well...didnt turn my computer on for almost 4 days in a row!!!...wow...but here i am...tho i dont have much to say...i have a lot of cleaning to do...my room...looks REALLY fuqd up...

on another note...JOEY MCINTYRE is AWESOME in boston public...oh...and he doesnt look bad either...i almost forgot to mention (no i didnt...thats the only reason im posting)...hes back in town for a concert...woOwoO...and i already have tickets...thanks to cheryl for the info...shes so awesome...

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so very hung

over October 30, 2002 - 1234pm

*grunt*

i seriously don't recommend drinking hard liquor on a fuqn weekday if you need to be at work the next morning...pics of all alcoholic activity will be up later...probably after i recover from halloween night as well...

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lack of

patience October 29, 2002 - 325am

why am i so fuqn impatient? seriously...ugH...

i hate iron-on transfers...

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bhahaa

funness October 28, 2002 - 137pm

i cant even begin to tell you how much fun i had this weekend...im way tired...n i smell like grease thanks to good ole ihop across the street...so im gonna go shower...and be back with an entry...later...but as they all say...a picture is worth...lots o makers shots...lol

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new

layout October 26, 2002 - 224pm

its already so cold...=(...i hate the cold...really i do...minnesota already got snow...its just a matter of time for us...i know those who havent/rarely see snow are so fuqn envious...fuq you...lets switch places...lol...i dont mind the snow...at all...i hate the shoveling of snow...the driving in snow...the cleaning of snow off car...it all very much SUCKSASS

so im working on a new layout...i already started...umm...havent really gathered all my thoughts yet...jus kinda rushed into it...and now im a little stuck..so it might be a while...but im hoping i can spit it out beginning-middle of november...

im just veryveryvery bored with my site...and i definitely need to venture more into flash mx...ive been slacking a tad...ok...ive been slacking a shitload...

gotta go workout now...n then eat...n then shower...n then head over to mccormick place for iimport revolution...oh such funness...

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oic

THATS WAT SHES SAYING? October 24, 2002 - 1133pm

so im really liking missy elliot's 'work it'...when i first heard it...i thought it was waaAaay raunchy...but i dunno...for some reason im really digging it...and i couldnt figure out her lyrics...theres this one part where i swear shes speaking alien...

Is it worth it, let me work it
I put my bang down, flip it and reverse it
It's your fremme neppa venette
It's your fremme neppa venette

umm...i have NO CLUE what that means...but yah...thats wat shes saying...

fuq...im hungry again...ugh...gotta workout first tho...

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aaarrrghhhh

stupid computers October 23, 2002 - 203am

i swear...i crash at work i crash at home...must be stupid me...fuq...

anyway...i had an awesome workout...2 miles in 30 mins...felt pretty good...after binging on chips and chocolate and candy yesterday...=D...i only did a mile yesterday tho...hehe...im not really losing any weight...but i feel different...and my clothes are way loser...plus...i can see/feel my ribs and my collar bones again...woOo...i know i amuse you...laugh...out loud if you must...

so cnn.com is having this thing...where people can submit their ideas/designs for the rebuild of wtc...umm...its...interesting...check it out...i think this should be a middle finger instead...i think this person is gay...i think this person likes to play jenga...umm...and thats only the first page...

jay and i watched dog days yesterday...its like real world (whats sad is that i knew the real world url by heart)...but with dog owners/dogs...its funny... i watched:

Episode #2 — Is Love Blind? - Airs: 10/21
Between dogs and their owners there is a loyalty that often extends beyond reason. In this episode, Gary gets a hat made of his dog's hair. Now Astro will be with him forever. Karyn sides with bad boy Cyrus over the advice of her dog therapist. And Anne walks her pit bull, Paquita, without a leash — oblivious as cats flee in all directions. Other characters that appear in this episode are: Eddie, Rick, Ajile

i already have a favorite...and its Ajile's dog...PRADA...wat a fuqn cutie!!!...hes a spoiled little shih tzu...and yup...that makes him a little shit...he wouldnt even walk on his own...his owner had to pick him up and put him in his bag...oh...and people think my dog bobo is spoiled...omg...she brought prada to the prada store to get him a little something...but the security guard wouldnt let her go in with him...PLUS the dogs been to the hamptons...shoo...but yah...the dood with the dog hair hat...GROSS...he funna stank when it snows or rains..."smells like dog up in here"...but his doggie is really cute tho...astro...he looks like louise's old dog...lacieeeey...

i should really go to bed...been having sleep issues as of late...ugh...apparently my teeth grinding is back too...been waking up with fuqd up headaches...it sucks...plus winter is fast approaching...trying to prepare mentally for my annual winter blahs...

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breaking up

with a friend October 23, 2002 - 1243am

i think thats a good way of putting it...im just really too tired to be dealing with shit...call me selfish...i really dont fuqn care...stubborn?...sure...watever...i mean...no...i havent really put much thought into any of it...and maybe i should...before i make such a rash decision...and stand by my choice...but...this is how i feel...right now...its how ive felt for over a week...maybe itll change over time...maybe itll change for other reasons...dunno...

would i consider it a toxic relationship...not necessarily...if anything...things are different...i embrace change...i think change is good...but this...is a different type of change...i never expected it to remain the same...all types of relationships change on certain levels...and you learn to adapt to the change...thats wat being in a relationship is about...but for some reason...this feels different...yah...its sad that im actually ok with letting things go...but theres nothing to patch up...it isnt something that can be fixed right now...wait...no...it simply cant be fixed...period...there isnt a problem that you can pinoint...its just one of those things...you either suck it up and just go with the flow...or...you suck it up...and let it go...

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23

is alive October 21, 2002 - 828pm

so i think the photoshoot went pretty good...very indepth...so that was cool...but let me tell ya...it was mother fuqn bitchass COLD out there...woO...eck...

umm...we had hooters after the shoot...oh and conrads pos car broke down on him...so to take out his frustrations...he umm...yah...thats 23 wings...rip little chickitees...

just watched boston public...joey mcintyre is HOT...wat a sexy bastard...=)

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.gag.

hurl.spin.whoosh October 19, 2002 - 222pm

at least the headache i woke up with at 8am is now semi-gone...

so i went to dragonfly last night...just didnt want to stay home...plus i havent been out in a LOOOOONG time...i didnt eat all day...and knowing what was ahead of me...i needed food in my stomach...so jayjay and i had dumplings and mango chicken at the bar..the dumplings were yummy...the mango chicken was ok...but at least i got some solids in my tummy...

i think overall it was a fun night...jayjay mixed for a bit and then took off for dragon room before 1...so i pretty much hung out at the door with pete,ian, and nat. there were lots of people there that i knew...but they associated with people i didnt...umm...well...yah...=D...hahaha...

anyway...lets try to piece my memory together...naw...it really wasnt that bad...norman showed up with a couple of his boys...and i saw a bunch o misc people i haven't seen in a loOoooong ass time...glen being one of them...saw albert too...nolans friend...but he didnt recognize me...that bastard...took him a LOONG ass while to realize it was me...

did a double makers with norman...by that time rolled around he already had LOTS to drink...that was my first drink of the night...cuz the two sips from jjs drink doesnt really count...ummm...k yah...fuq the details...i got fuqd up...=)...had two shots of Belvedeire with vic pete n ian...i think...i dont kno...but i know vic and pete were involved both times...and i was ok...so i got tired...was ready to leave...but no...vic said...ONE MORE SHOT...and yah...it felt like new years eve all over again...i was like in a pinball machine...bounced around by vic.pete.ihwa and possibly ian...lack of memories is nice...and yah...so i felt REALLY sick...and umm...we did the shot anyway...and yah...ihwa went to bathroom wit me and i HUUUURLD...um..and then random ice throwing on my part...pete says i poured my drink on him...but i think hes lying...tho...he probably isnt...cuz i have a tendency to do that when im drunk...throw ice...my drink...etc...and apparently so does vic...cuz all i remember was getting water poured all over me...of course i hunted him down...stumbling...but only to get another drink poured all over me...

i dont remember wat else happend...but i know vic shoved me in a cab and told the cabbie to go to chinatown...what a bitchass...but then two blocks later i realized i forgot my fuqn jacket and my apt keys...so we turned back...of course when i came out there were so many cabs out there...pete just shoved me in one...and off i went...with the most talkative fuqn cabbie ever...fuqr asked so many questions it wasnt funny...i just kept grunting and mumbling...and then he goes and says "you so pretty...so beautiful"...so i said..."if you dont stop talking to me...im goin to puke in your cab"...and he shuttup real good...umm...when i got to the apt i puked on the first tree i saw...and over the railing by the stairs...i left a nice trail for jayjay...shoes on the stairs...jacket on the floor in the living room...toilet seat up in the bathroom...you know...had to puke somemore...and then i jus stripped and crawled into bed...

so here i am...chillin...gotta go to a photo/video shoot later tonight with deceptions doods...

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yum

FOOD October 17, 2002 - 334pm

hahaha...found this pic on http://www.airlinemeals.net its a food item from cathay pacific...i have no clue where pete gets his links...but this one finds ways to amuse and disgust me all at the same time...

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pop fizzle

drool October 16, 2002 - 1124pm

ive been craving all sorts of weird shit today...i had a fuqn craving for onions at work...so i was gonna get a philly steak sandwich from burger baron...the burger joint i go to at work...well...i had NO cash on me watsoever...so i speedpassed it at mcdonalds...i love that thing...and i got a #5...big n tasty combo w/ extra onions...yum...and then i had a craving for a snickers crunch bar...and then i was craving funyuns...and then i was craving some diet pepsi (drinkin it now)...screwy...

so theres all kinds o ruckus up in here...up in here...cuz jayjay jus got pushed into a dj battle for tomorrow night...and yup...you guessed it...hes practicing...i think its cool...i miss hearing him practice...as much as i dont sit there and gawk over him on his tables...its hott...=P

i didnt leave work till 730 today...such fun...i cant WAIT for the MADNESS to END...i went home home afterwards...im so glad bobo isnt mad at me anymore...he totally ignored me last week...i was seriously hurt...but then i purposely went to walgreens on monday and bought him a toy...he loves me again...but of course he already broke the squeeker on it...speaking of home...they redid all the windows...moved a bunch o shit around...i swear...i feel so useless...my mom didnt even call me to ask me for help or to tell me wat was goin down...bleh...

gloria,kathleen,& peter r going to minnesota tomorrow...i wont be participating cuz...i hate minnesota...i kno i kno...it should be different cuz at least well have a car...i wont have to pay $30 one way to a casino so i could lose $70...hehe...but still...this will save me some money...so its ok...but i hope they have fun and eat lots of cheese curds and bring me back a souvenir...hehe

my neighbor must be home...i smell sumtn cooking...oh wait...i think its jjs leftovers from last night...that fag...oh speaking of leftovers...our dinner last night was AWEFUQNSOME...omg it was so good...obriens...yum...k sorry...distracted...daym...now im hungry...i still need to workout...i HAVE to workout...i didnt workout last night...oki i should go workout...but not before i download a couple of songs...=P

* * * * t a h: been okay
itwaceei: o you have a life now
itwaceei: hahaha
* * * * t a h: where getting married
itwaceei: thats why ur not on
itwaceei: no shit...i kno ur gettin married...
* * * * t a h: umm saturday
itwaceei: you guys plannin yet?...
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
itwaceei: ur gettin married saturday?!?!?!?
* * * * t a h: yah blank stare
itwaceei: woa
* * * * t a h: oh shhh
itwaceei: why?
itwaceei: did you knock her up?
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
itwaceei:
* * * * t a h: stupid!!
* * * * t a h: no no no
* * * * t a h: knock her up ..
* * * * t a h: lol
* * * * t a h: ROFLMAO
itwaceei: wow another married man...
itwaceei: sup with that...everyones gettin hitched
itwaceei: goodlawd
* * * * t a h: umm how about you ..
* * * * t a h: Tracy Estrada
itwaceei: haha fuqr...
itwaceei: tho thats a pretty sexy name huh?
itwaceei: lmao
* * * * t a h: lol Tracy "ERAP Jr" Estrada
itwaceei: LMAO HAHHAHAHA

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8 years

'happy' October 15, 2002 - 201pm

*giddy* umm...yah...8 years...can you believe that?...i get overwhelmed with cheese when i think about 'us'...i try not to show it...you know...gotta put out that stiff exterior cardboard box...but inside...omg...you know how cheese melts and it gets all thick n creamy?...yah...those are my insides...i know...its sickening huh?...getting chills huh?...well...too bad...thats how i feel...*happy*

btw...baby got back is playing on kisfm...i hate this station...but im too lazy to change it...no satellite...=(...and work is so busy...its not funny...i cant wait till this wave of craziness is over...i swear...i either have NOTHING to do...or i have to do EVERYTHING...ugh...hungry...

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weekend

warrior October 13, 2002 - 1045pm

busy busy busy weekend...i am soooo tired...

so friday...i showed up to work late...had a little too much fun at the apartment...=P...but then i left early too cuz i had to go to no doubt concert...we grabbed some burger king...them tacos are goood...weird...but good...we picked up louise at 6...and made it to all state arena a little before 7...the distillers and good charlotte opened for no doubt...the distillers was a bit too punk rocky for me...but good charlotte was really...umm...good and no doubt was obviously awesome...and then we dropped off louise...overall the concert was great...cant say too much about anything else tho...kinda wish i could talk in code right now...i slept over at glorias cuz we had the makeup show at 8am saturday...we stayed up till about 3...just talking...and psycho analyzing...

i was up at 630am on saturday...i dont even wake up like that for work...but there was no snoozing for me...i was in the shower in a minute...we picked up donna at 715 and headed downtown...FREE parking in glorias work lot...hey i dont mind walking a couple blocks...it was FREE...so of course at the makeup show...we got TON o free stuff...lots of which im keeping...only a few that im selling on ebay...i had a make-over appointment with vincent longo...saw him at the last show...hes just...so...'wow'...yah i bought something from his makeup line last year cuz he made over my lips and my cheeks...just stood there in the aisle...and worked on me...*drool*...anyway...i also had an appointment with mac...donna had her makeover with mac at the last show...and she said "they made me look like a fuqn clown"...well that worried me...so i figured i would weigh my decision on what their model came out looking like...well...lets just say...she looked like a fuqn clown..so i only went to my vincent longo session...he personally worked on my right eye...=D...bahaha...i know its psychotic...but hes freakn hot...well...the man has his own make-up line...so hes obviously very gay...but still...that australian accent...oh my...i spent lots of money there...umm...lets just say i just bought him a new shoe lace...lol

we ate afterwards...and we just kinda walked around the mall...so...a couple of months ago...donna told us her and her boyfriend went ring shopping...we were all like woa...lol...i was going to ask her about the ring yesterday but i figured i'd wait till after the show...she went to the bathroom and walked out acting all weird..."guys i have to tell you something"...umm ok..."but you have to come closer"...so we did...OMG...she busted out with a fuqn rock that blinded and shocked the three of us...and naturally...the three of us rushed her...hehe...and we were all jumping and shrieking like little kids...it was crazy...i swear we were all on verge of tears cuz we were soOoo happy for her...that ring...is GORGEOUS...oh and of course...her 'fiance' is sooo very very good to and for her...

then we chilled at donnas house for a few...she had to do her sisters hair for a wedding she was going to...gosh...her family is hiarlious...seriously...and boy can her mom cook...had some of that homemade pizza and it was TOO good...yum...then her sister brough home some croissants...omg...chocolate covered ones...drool...and i was craving croissants that morning...after that we went to watch sweet home alabama but we got there 5 minutes too late and there were NO seats...i mean...we were second row...so we watched knockaround guys...i mean...if you want my hormones to surge...just play that movie...and yah...*drool*...

today...i woke up at 930 and slept at 945 and woke up at 1 and slept at 430 and woke up at 630...yah...went to gale street inn with jj,conrad,jerome,don and sheryl...was soOoo yummy...just watched alias...now im watchin boomtown...and umm...at the end of this entry...it will be 12:04am...*beep*

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you stank ass

.gag. October 10, 2002 - 515pm

do you have bad breath?

It's hard to know, since the olfactory nerves in your nose become accustomed to your own odor. (And, no, breathing into cupped hands doesn't always work.) Some suggestions:

1. Breathe into a plastic bag, close it for a few seconds, then sniff.
2. Lick the back of your hand, wait 45 seconds, then smell it.
3. The best and most accurate way: Ask a close friend or a child around the age of five (young kids always tell it like it is) for an opinion.

i didnt make that up...i know it sounds like it...with the sniffing and licking...but i didnt...i swear...see?

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you think you know

you know October 10, 2002 - 154pm

i want a video diary...all mtv'd out n stuff..."you think you know...but you have no idea...this is the diary of..."...that would be so hot...it would be drippy...

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people are

stupid October 10, 2002 - 115pm

wtf is the point of leaving a 5 fuqn minute long vmail if you have NOTHING to say...why are my clients so fuqn DUMB?!...seriously...omg...jus email me that shit...deng...cuz i wanna sit here and listen to "uh...yah so...blahblahblah and umm...no wait you know what how bout...blahblahblah..." oh FUQ YOU...

im watching clockstoppers for the 3rd fuqn time...omg...make it go away...puhleeese...

debating a layout change...i dunno wtf to tho...i like this layout but i dont...well i like it..im bored of it...hence the color changes...but yah...that really doesnt help...

not really wanting to work...jus sitting here staring at the screen...and im hungry...

emptying my brain...can you tell?...

wanna leave early today...but gots to wait for vic...so...i dont think ill be leaving early...plus...theres still that parking situation...umm...that there isnt any...well there is...but only if im willing to wake up at 7am to move my car across the street...fuq that...

i jus got a whiff of myself...and im so glad i smell so good...

looking forward to the concert tomorrow...but thats about it...just the concert...nothing else...noone else...lol...

feel a dumper coming on...

harry potter november 15...YAY...

nay hi been gaw ah? nay geem guy hi doe ah? say bot gong...say bot paw...=D

sexual frustration...this is so gay...lol

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i have a

boring life October 9, 2002 - 1013pm

like after reading other peoples blogs...yup...im such a fuqn bore...why are you even reading this?...lol...omg i jus realized i threw out garbage and forgot to wash my hands...GROSS...

k...im back...umm..oh...im really bored of this layout...i think it stinks...smells worse than the recycling dump across from my work...and thats REALLY bad...seriously...its the definition of funktifyably bad...

guess what i learned from that play? the male intellect...that i probably have a penis but dont know it...cuz i swear a lot...he said guys swear a lot because they have a penis...and i swear a lot...i can pretty much say a whole sentence consisting of the word fuq...but i wont...cuz dood..im sure little kids stumble onto this site too...and that it would be really fuqn wrong for those little fuqs to read something this fuqd up...but you should hear me when im pissed..."what the fuq does she fuqn think shes doing? thats so fuqd up...you know what? fuq her..i dont fuqn need a friend like that because all this is fuqn bullshit" can you see that i have issues?...i can and i dont care...because cleaning and working out can cleanse all sources of stress...i need code...i need to develope code so i can talk secretively n shit...but of course to myself...hmm...sumtn to think about...umm i jus realized i went mega manic...sorry...

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pretty ugly

an oxymoron October 9, 2002 - 129am

omg...LMAO...the male intellect : an oxymoron is fuqn HILARIOUS...the one man show is only in chicago this week...GO see it...you can still get tickets at ticketmaster.com...its funny shit...of course its thanks to gloria...happy early merry xmas present to me...=D...

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allergies

make me sleepy October 8, 2002 - 1219pm

seriously...unless it says non-drowsy...im NOT taking it...ugH...and there's STILL construction goin on down my street...fuqn sucks ass...at least im no longer ragging...woOo...i can let them hormones loose...=)

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bloody

freakn rag October 6, 2002 - 1230am

yah...time of the motherbitchassfuqn month...ugh...despite the cramping...i had a kickass workout...3miles in 36 minutes...woOoo...needless to say i was dripping sweat and breathin heavy...

nothing on tv today...tho i did watch 2 episodes of trading spaces...love that show...but im glad im not quite as addicted as i previously was...and i caught up on my road ruless while watchin the marathon...this real world cast:vegas...is on my last nerves...theyre all so fuqn superficial and dysfunctional...i mean...they usually are...thats how real worlders have always been...buncha whiny shallow no brainers...but this cast seriously has issues...wait...didnt i say there wasn't anything on tv?...hehe

jus paid a bunch o bills...BLAH...i feel like i need another workout...jus to workoff the stress from lookn at all those wonderful numbers...

can i tell you how much it sucks when you're trying to keep a friendship going...but the other party isnt responsive...i mean...fuq...its happend once...i didnt do shit to save it the first time...but i thought id put in the effort this time around...fuq it...i dont have the time or the fuqn patience...and i guess its gonna happen again...

1. Do you use styling products in your hair?
$11.50 crazy hair or sum shit...forgot wat its called

2. Do you think someone named Hank Die wears cowboy boots?
sure

3. Last time you called in sick, were you faking it?
had the runny runs...

4 Your catch phrase?
fuq that...

5. Ever heard of Rob Hawkins?
No

6. Pink?
umm no...

7. Best muppet?
oscar the grouch

8. Best snack?
funyuns

9. Science or religion?
a little bit o both

10. Salad dressing of choice?
rasberry vinegrette

11. Independent or codependent?
Independent

12. Football?
every sunday afternoon and monday night

13. Science fair?
7th grade i have no clue what i made

14. Coke or Pepsi?
diet pepsi

15. Ever been in a fight?
umm yah when i was at uic waitin to get in the fashion show...some stupid white girl was pushing me even though there was no where to go...we got into some verbal stuff but my friend wouldnt let me go after her...when she came out she stared me down and we bitched out somemore...and then she poured her cup of cold coffee all over me so umm we started fighting...=)...i had a handful of her hair by the time my friend yanked me off her...i was wearin these thick soled shoes and kept kicking at her shin...all chun li style n shit...

16. Best ice cream?
Mint Chocolate Chip

17. Does your phone have a cord?
cell phone baby

18. Best swear word?
fuq

19. When was your last oil change?
about 3500 miles or so ago...im overdue for one

20. Are you a slob?
sometimes...you might find sum shirts and a pair of jeans on my bed because they arent really dirty enough for the hamper but not clean enough for my drawers...jus good enough for me to wear once more

21. Allergies?
OMG yah...hay fuqn fever

22. How many credit cards do you have?
too many

23. Boats?
Gloria wants one...unless ur talkn bout gambling ones then YES

24. Malt or milkshake?
strawberry Milkshake

25. Most annoying noise?
my landlord's screaming kids

26. Do you have 20/20 vision?
more like -350 and -525

27. Mall of America?
hate that place..tho they have some awesome cheese curds

28. Shower or bath?
bath and then shower

29. What time is it right now?
12:59am central

30. Do you like strawberries?
dood YAH...

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i need help

addictions October 2, 2002 - 730pm

bahahaa...like i didnt know it before or sumtn...but im completely addicted to tv...i never used to be...i guess thats wat you get when you have access to satellite tv at work...so now that i have it at home too...hehee...its not gonna get any better...

gloria, kathleen and i went to a make-up show at marshall field's this past saturday...omg it was awesome...i got so much free shit...and most of it is stuff that i'd use...we had lots of fun...and it was completely worth it...shit...i woke up at 630am...it better be worth it...afterwards we went to old navy...i bought a jacket...and then we ate at corner baker...and then went shoe shopping at carson's but didnt find anything...umm...then we went back to glorias and played with our makeup...i have pics...but ill be nice...hehe...not everyone can look good with shimmery blue lips...but kathleen sure can...=P...

power puff girls is on now...gotta go...

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class of 91

mini-reunion September 23, 2002 - 1147am

wow...what a weird ass weekend...

i went to a wedding on saturday 09-21-02 for one of my old grade school classmates...i mean...gradeschool...how old am i now?!...i've known the boy since pre-school...we were like...4...holy shit...thats 21 fuqn years...im so freaked out now...anyway...i thought it would be really awkward seeing all these other people i havent seen in years...i've only kept in touch with gloria...on like an every day basis..and weve gotten together with norman and sammy a couple times the past year or so...but as for everyone else...i havent seen in years...needless to say i was a little...umm...less than enthusiastic?...

but it turned out...that i had SOOOO much fun...i think we all did...it was just good seeing everyone and playing catchup...tho we have a lot more to catchup on...everything was pretty surface...we were a little too busy eating/laffn/taking pictures/dancing/drinking...yah...so were planning a dinner thang near the end of october...im crazy busy in october..so is gloria (along with kathleen)...were goin to watch male intellect: an oxymoron on oct 8 (xmas present from gloria), we're goin to the no doubt concert on oct 11, and we have a make-up show at nordstrom on oct 12...i also have an anniversary to celebrate on oct 15...8 years...were probably goin to have dinner at o'briens...yum...plus barbra and sammy are out of town the beginning of october...and gloria is out of town mid october...we havent heard from norman cuz the boy is on his honeymoon in maui...hehe...were probably gonna end up goin out oct 23-24...

but i seriously didnt expect to have such a good time...and the reception was beautiful...the presentation was so nice...and food was soOoo yummy...i had 3 glasses of wine, a glass of champagne, and a sip of glorias wine when she wasnt looking...and i was FINE...=D...cant say the same about norman...he was a tad tipsy towards the end...

its like a month away but im completely looking forward to goin out with everyone...now...i have to get back to work...got them fuqn deadlines...bleh

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new shorter

me September 17, 2002 - 1140am

no dsl at the apt again...i swear...its REALLY annoying...i HATE relying on people as it is...bleh...this sucks...anyway...i cut my hair...its short...not shortshort...but pretty short...considering my hair was halfway down my back..now its a little above my shoulders...i like it...a lot...but the way i like it...takes time to fix it...so that kinda sucks...but its ok...i dig...

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September 17, 2002 - 1140pm

weird...exactly 12 hours...anyway...yay dsl is back...i have a new fixation...joey mcintyre who?...k...no...still obsessed...but currently preoccupied...this gap commercial featuring will kemp...actor/dancer...is soOooo yah...can i jus loop it?...

so i finished lord of the rings...all three books...very very very very fuqn good...cant wait for the movies now...speakin of movies...am i not a dork to have chills when viewin the harry potter: chamber of secrets trailer?...yup...i knew youd agree...

jj bought me monsters inc. dvd...gonna go watch dat now...while i workout...and yes...im STILL working out...almost everyday...i missed maybe one day...but i usually make it up...somehow...someway...

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9|11

overwhelming September 11, 2002 - 1248pm

there's so much coverage...its a little annoying...a little intriguing...and all overwhelming...

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reconnected

feels yay September 5, 2002 - 152pm

our neighbor...steve...downstairs...his hard drive is now fixed...but that wasnt until last night...and i think he needed motivation...so jj said "we should pay him the $20 so hell feel bad and fix his shit"...so we did...and left a note for him sayin how much we missed dsl and how we know that were pathetic...lol...but it worked...

i ordered tony littles gazzelle from walmart.com...gloria got hers like...maybe a month or so ago...and its pretty cool...i did a mile on it last night...about 20 mins...i hope to continue my workout today...goin h ome and hearing my parents say..."ur so fat"...yah...thats some negative ass shit...but its working...bastards...

so...im really broke...and this credit card debt...SUCKS ASSSSS...plus all these weddings n fuqn showers...arrgh...watever...im broke...so...i should get back to work now...

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disconnected

feels blah August 26, 2002 - 1248pm

our neighbor...steve...downstairs...his hard drive crashed...that sucks...why would that remotely affect me you ask?...well...were tapping into his dsl...dont worry...hes full aware of this...its been down all weekend...bleh...i hope its up n runnin when i get home...i gots some bills to pay...

friday...was sooOooo awesome...gloria.kathleen.louise.ramel.jayjay.donna.jason took me out for my birthday...i had a GREAT time...too bad in cant go into detail...i got lots o work ive neglected...so...yah...more when i get dsl back at the apt...

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and how old are you

on this day? August 21, 2002 - 1212am

im 25...im 25...

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oodles and toodles

of fun August 20, 2002 - 610pm

the bbq was AWESOME...as much as i dread the celebration of getting old...i have fun every single year...and its always thanks to the great friends, family, and man i have...=)...this year was like...beyond it...and im not even done celebrating...we had a good number of people show up at the bbq...almost all of which were significant people...lol...im such an ass...and so unappreciative...but duh...i fed them free food right...so i can talk shit...lol...but i wont...cuz i shouldnt...who knos who reads this anyway...maybe jus me...maybe everybody...anyway...i had a really good time...and got some awesome gifts...

jayjays mom made SOOO much food...i swear...it was like...feeding a freakn army or sumtn...but...she didnt have time to make beef skewers...the one thing i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted...i coulda done without burgers/hotdogs/porkchops/chicken/etc...i jus wanted beef skewers...i was seriously upset...so upset i was moved to tears...i kno i musta looked like such a temper tantrum throwing baby to jj...but dood...i was really upset...and being the loving boyfriend he is...somehow someway...he found some...THAT made my day...no matter wat went wrong...i would have been fine..cuz i got beef skewers...see how screwy my mind is?...

my mom n brother came with homemade potato salad and pasta salad along with the HYOOOGE 40person hello kitty cake my dad ordered...omg...was soOooo good...everyone wanted the potato salad to themselves...lol...and the cake was yum yum yum...

overall it was a great night...there were minor setbacks...louise didnt make it...she actually 'forgot'...even though i understood her situation at the time...i was still very VERY upset with her...i mean...she forgot...so...that didnt sit quite well with me...but i got over it...THE NEXT NIGHT...hehe...im jus concerned with her...i know she has a lot on her hands right now...it cant all be making her too healthy...so hopefully...shell get her mind back...hehe...oh and umm...thanks to vic...i got fuqd up...one shot of bookers...thats all it took...but bookers...i mean...ITS BOOKERS...it was my VERY FIRST SHOT of bookers...EVER...and it was a whole fuqn lot...so i threatened to puke on him/his car...i didnt...he pushed me out of the way and drove off...bastard...but if i did puke on him...i woulda felt bad...cuz i felt really bad for my toilet...lol...i mean...CHUNKS...cuz lets not forget...i ATE A LOT...still...i had fun...=D

i couldnt have done it without jayjay,gloria, and kathleen...theyre so awesome...im sure they kno that too...hehe...but yah...goin to dinner with family tonight...in about 5 mins actually...i dont know what im doing tomorrow...havent really talked about tomorrow...my actual birthday...but on friday...were goin to fondue stube and then 2nd city...=D...

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preparation

H..lol August 17, 2002 - 1151pm

so...i'm having this bbq tomorrow...its for my birthday...i dunno...i miss having birthday parties...the last one i had...must have been when i was 13...and im turning 25 on wednesday...so its been a while...plus i thought it would be a good opportunity for those who havent seen the apartment to see it...this includes my family...im a little on the nervous side...i just want them to have a good impression of my living environment...plus..this is gonna be the first time my mom and jjs mom will be meeting...i mean...after 8 years...hopefully that goes well...im a little shaky about it...but jjs fine...

we went to costco yesterday to get food and stuff for bbq...i completely forgot to look for uncrustables...dammit...but we signed up for a membership...so i can pretty much go there whenever...its much more convenient than sams club...i mean...its less than 10 mins away...so its cool...i swear were such broke asses...but were lucky cuz we jus happen to have friends who are generous and willing to share too...lol...we borrowed a bunch of those collapsable chairs from vic...he had a shitload for his bookers vs. makers party...and we have a table from pete along with those tv tray tables, and were borrowing wills grill...woOOoo...so that saved us a bunch of money...yay...

we jus came back from dinner at rancho luna...ate there with will.sandra.ethan. and wills mom...its where jjs old restaurant was...marilou's...yah brought back some mega memories...omg...can i tell you...that food was soOooo good...its my first time there...first time having cuban food...and i loved it...were completely stuffed..jjs knocked out right now...he kept saying.."im trying so hard to hate this restaurant...but the food is so good"...i dont blame him for harboring feelings of resentment...that restaurant has been doing really well...it's unfortunate that their restaurant didn't last longer...

im hoping for a good turnout tomorrow...a lot of people cant join us...but thats ok...the apartment isnt really big enough to host a large amount of people...k...food coma is setting in strong...laters

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field trip

on a stormy day August 14, 2002 - 1232am

WOW...so my cousins...